"The fear. That's the worst part. How can you ever let your guard down, when you've been hit, knocked down, one too many times? How can you let it down, when in doubt whether or not you're going to need it? How can you let the next one come inside, when the array of marks from the last one never quite left your heart? How can you solemnly trust, when proven that you cannot? Why can't you just forgive and forget it, like everyone else? You assume it's a matter of letting go, but how can you let go of your consciousness, your experience, your knowledge? How can you know whether or not it's right, that this time you won't end up as bad as last time, that this time you can solemnly trust? How can you know when to take action, when it's still stuck inside of you, this fear. This fear of the unknown, of free-falling, of the butterflies, of the joy?..Inexplicable."
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